A new exercise routine....oh boy

So here I am, and once again put the weight back on. I cannot be sure of my exact weight and will try and find that out tomorrow. Tomorrow I also start P90X, oh boy. I have no idea what that is going to be like. I cant really follow the nutrition guide while I am in England but I am going to do my best to eat healthy and do all the workout, wish me luck. I know once people arrive in about a week its going to be hard trying to find the time to do it but I am just going to have to push myself, maybe get up a bit earlier and do it that way. Anyways wish me luck!

Lets start over.....again

Ok, so I have failed somewhat once again, ugh! I have not been doing weight watchers pretty much for about a month. I don't really know what happened, how exactly I fell off. I think it was mainly spring break, not really having the will power to measure the points out for everything. So i got on the scales today and it read 190 lbs, ugh. However at least is not 195.6 like it was a couple months ago. I already have done bad today, however I stayed true to what I had eaten and entered it into iWatcher. Its 10:27 a.m and I have 6.6 points left for the day. I doubt I will be able to stick to that small amount of points but I am certainly going to try. I have some zero point weight watchers soups I will have for lunch and then I will just have to wait for dinner. So once again wish me luck and I hope I can keep it up this time.

New set

Well it has been a little while since my last blog. It has been pretty busy and have just returned from spring break. However good news. I stepped on the scale today and it read 186.6, so pretty much 9 pounds down which is good. I feel that I could have lost quite a bit more by now but at least the scale is not going the other way. So today I am back on weight watchers and would like to try and lose a little more for graduation, which is only 6 weeks away. I am hoping that by losing the weight slower it will stay off more easily.

I'm back

Well it has been quite a while since my last post. I have been very busy with studying and getting my work done. Weight watchers has been going pretty well. At the moment I am fluctuating between 188-189 which is making me frustrated because I should have lost more by now. There have been a couple days where I know I went over my points and I am pretty sure that it what is stopping me from really losing any more. I have discovered that if i get pretty hungry during the day for a couple hours I seem to have lost weight the next day. I also feel that maybe 27 points for me is too much and I am going to try and maybe do 25 but its always so hard when you are hungry and you think oh I still have those two points left.

Another week

Well today was a good day for me. I got on the scales and it read 191.0. Yay! So I have lot another half pound. This is the longest time I have stuck with weight watchers, going strong into week three woo hoo! I am learning all the time about foods that are lower in calories but still really good and pretty filling. The only time I have really strayed was Superbowl Sunday for dinner. I went to some good friends of mine who had made some amazing food, the Superbowl works: Pizza, hot wings, dip, etc... and all of it amazing. However I was very proud of myself that I got right back onto Weight watchers the next day. Last night I made a Spaghetti Bolognaise with whole wheat Spaghetti. I have figured out that for every once of dry pasta it makes 2 ounces of wet. I therefore had 6 ounces of pasta last night for only 3.5 points. The pasta was whole wheat which makes a huge difference in points and overall is just so much better for you health wise.

This weekend is valentines day weekend. I will be eating a meal on saturday that makes me a little nervous. I need to figure out what I am making and measure out the calories, etc... On Sunday Austin and I are going to PF Changs, a Chinese Bistro, and one of my most favorite restaurants. I always get the chicken lettuce wraps which are to die for and was pleasantly surprised when I did the nutrition calculations last night that I can have the whole thing for about 13 points. I am however planning on getting some WW soup which is pretty good and always really low in calories with some of my double fiber bread and have that for lunch and maybe a yogurt and fruit for breakfast. This way I can keep my points down to a minimum and try to really enjoy myself that night. Austin has mentioned possibly getting me some candy for valentines day and if he does I will have to be really good and eat it very slowly. We will see how well that works. I did mention to him that he could get me some better bathroom scales for valentines day which is the absolute opposite in candy but its definitely what I need more.

At this moment we are about 1/3 of the way through February. Clemson has their spring break in about a month and I am going to try really hard to at least lose that 2 pounds a week and hopefully lose another 8 pounds or so before that time. My friend who are going with me are also quite health conscious and so we are going to try and plan meals that are healthy overall. I think I will still have to be careful that week though as we will be there during Saint Patricks day and overall will be having a great time.

Still going strong

Well these last few days have been going well for me. So far I have stuck to my points and am finding it relatively easy to do so. I am getting a little hungry at night but I try and drink water and not think about it. I got a little down because the scales said 193.0. However, good news. When I went on the scales today it said 191.5 so yay another 1.5 pounds down.

I feel really food about weight watchers this time. I don't think I have really stuck with it for this long and still felt so empowered. I have been doing weight watchers with a person quite close to me and it has made a world of difference. Talking about it keeps me on my toes and so far my heels haven't come down too far lol. I am finding more and more everyday foods that are pretty low in calories that can fill you up. For example, there is a double fiber bread that allows you two slices for a point! Do you know how great that is? I think its pretty fantastic. Also I really like weight watchers yogurts, you can have those for a point, and my mom recently got me onto a Greek yogurt called Chobani which has 18 grams of protein and no fat or fiber for just 100 calories. I like to add a little honey (about 1 TBS) to the yogurt and it makes it really yummy. This person who I am doing this new lifestyle with is also doing very well and it makes me so happy to see someone doing well with their weight, it inspires me more to keep going.

Today, even though I am not engaged quite yet, I started to think about my possible wedding and I became even more determined to lose the weight so that I could fit into the size I wanted to. I am hoping that tomorrow will not be too difficult. It is the superbowl and along with the superbowl comes lots and lots of food, and not always the best kind. I am just going to have to try my very best. I feel that I have done so well so far, I really do not want to mess it up with one day, so wish me luck!

On a Roll

Well today has been a good day. I got on the scales and they read 192.0. Woo hoo, so far lost almost 4 pounds. Hopefully the losing will continue. Today in food has also been good. I had a Greek yogurt with honey for breakfast, a weight watchers italian meat ball soup with two slices of bread (which by the way are only 1 WW point! They are double in fiber and only 50 calories for a slice). I also had some grapes and one of my 3 point brownies I made last night. For dinner I had some left over chicken parmesan I had made last night with one serving of pasta, some veggies, and a 2 point ice cream sandwhich for dessert, yum! I actually still have 2 points left for the day but do not feel hungry so I wont use them. Go me yay! So far it is all going well. As long as I can save about 16 points or so for dinner I usually do fine.

This weekend I may be going to Florida with Austin for the first bike race. I really hope I can go but may not be able to if there is not enough room. If not I am going to go home to Columbia. If I do go to Florida I am going to really have to watch what I eat. I really don't want to mess up everything I have worked so hard for these past two weeks. My I-Pod arrived at my mum's house today so will have it soon. It feels a long time since I bid on it.

Anyways this is me signing out for the night. Hopefully the good news will continue

The end of the day

Well today has gone quite well if i do say myself. I had chicken curry with vegetables for lunch and pizza for dinner. I still have two points left and am feeling quite full. I found out today that I did not get into NC State veterinary school. I was quite upset about it at first but realize that God has something bigger and better in store for me. I often turn to him to help me with weight loss and hope that this is the time I will really be able to come through. I hope that my weight will continue drop throughout the week. Wish me the best of luck.

Monday, again

Well here we are, another Monday, yet a new day for me to get back on track. So I did pretty bad yesterday. Austin and I went out to Ruby Tuesdays which was not bad but after had part of a milk shake and one of the apple dumplings I had made a couple days before. However I did have a pleasant surprise this morning. When I got on the scales it said 194.0. I weighed myself three times to make sure and each time it said the same thing. So a little bit of progress yay!

I am not really sure what I am going to eat for lunch. I have some hummus and Pita so I may have that along with veggies. As for dinner, I have no clue as of yet. I need to go and assess my meat situation. I had some oatmeal for breakfast, equaling two points. I am not really feeling all that hungry as of yet so that is good.

Back and back on track

I made it home safely from Atlanta on Friday nursing some very sore feet. However all in all the trip went very well and I gained a lot of great experience. Keeping to my points was hard. I am pretty sure I did not go over on the Wednesday, only eating lunch at Chick-Fil-A and then barely eating any dinner. The lack of eating however was more due to the fact that I was feeling a 100%, probably caused by the amount of pain my feet had been in that day. I am not sure about Thursday. I had 1.5 hard cooked eggs with two slices of toast for breakfast. For lunch the expo served ham sandwiches, along with an apple, chips, and a cookie, all of which I ate. I really should have not eaten the cookie. For dinner I had a chicken and avocado sandwich with garlic fries and mint ice tea. I am therefore pretty sure I went over my points. Friday should have gone better. I had a yogurt and cereal for breakfast, equaling 4 points. However the rest of the day did not go so well. I do not recall what I ate for lunch but went out and had part of eggplant Parmesan and some pasta for dinner and a few various candies at the movie theater, so very naughty. I was just ready to get back to normality from Atlanta I did not even want to try and have the will power, however I should have. On Saturday I went to chick-fil-a for lunch and had their 8 count of nuggets along with fries and for dinner we made a salmon honey pasta with apple dumplings for dessert. Once again I am sure I went over. Today so far I have had a little more of the pasta and one of the dumplings. I am getting pretty hungry right now but Austin and I may be going out later as we have been dating for 4.5 years today.

However there is good news. I stepped on the scales this morning and at first it said 194.8, however when I stepped back on the scales it said 195.6, so I am not sure if I lost any however I have not put any weight on. I would call that some what of a success at least. So starting again I am back on weight watchers now. I am starting to feel myself slip into that same "lets wait till tomorrow to start" mode that I always become prey too. Whenever I have started on diets before I always do really well and then within a week I have lost all will power. I am going to try and dry past this and continue on with the weight watchers. I know how badly I need to do this, its just so hard sometimes to think about not being able to have this or that food or having to take the trouble deciding what to eat.

Today is also quite a big day in that I am suppose to find out from NC state whether or not I get into their veterinary school. However considering that it is a Sunday I may not find out until tomorrow or even Tuesday. The waiting is making me feel a little nervous though and I am trying very hard to not go and snack on anything due to feeling a little uneasy.

Anyways I hope that my progress with weight watchers will continue and now that Atlanta is over hopefully the weight will start to come off.

Day 3

Well I am on my way to Atlanta today, in fact leaving within the next hour or so. Yesterday I did well, finished right at 27 points, having a 2 point ice cream sandwhich. I did not have any breakfast. I think we are planning on getting lunch on the way there and I am hoping to keep the points down for dinner tonight. I have my two interviews tomorrow, both chicken companies who process chicken. Just looking at the websites is making me hungry lol. Overall I think it will be a good experience.

I got on the scale this morning and it read 195.6, so a little less than yesterday which is good and the same amount I weighed on Monday. Lets hope when I come back on Friday the scale will not have gotten any higher.

In case I cannot get online over the next few days I ask for prayers and good thoughts towards me keeping the attitude to not let the food get the best of me. As my brother says, do not let the food rule you, you rule the food.

The end of Day 2

Well I made it through my Animal Products Lab with eating only half a cheese omelet and two bites of egg salad. To be fair I think I am going to rate the omelet as 3 points and the egg salad as 2. To sum today so far I had a 4 point slim fast shake for breakfast, a pretty nasty 4 point chicken soup for lunch, and the half omelet and two bites of egg salad. As you can imagine I am feeling pretty hungry. I am going to Atlanta tomorrow and really not feeling like cooking. I may go to Chick Fil A for Austin and I, one can have the chicken sandwich without butter for 8 points and the salad with half a packet of the fat free honey mustard dressing for 2 points. That will bring me up to 23 points for the day so far. I am sure that I will still be hungry later and may have some cereal or something to try and tide me over.

Today I went to Rugged Warehouse and Target to try and find something else for Atlanta's interviews. Standing in the mirror I definitely did not like what I saw and felt pretty self conscious especially considering I have no make up on today, have my hair thrown back in a pony tail, and my face has decided its going to take its revenge and break out right before I go to Atlanta. I tell you what, if i could go shopping every day and look at myself half naked in the mirror that often trying on clothes that don't fit I think it would be pretty hard for me to break my diet. Of course this will not happen, I have neither the money nor the time to go pretend shopping everyday just to keep me on track. However perhaps I can keep that mental image in my help and use this to try and keep me motivated.

I am very looking forward to getting my i-pod so that I feel more confident about keeping track of things and going out to eat on a whim. I will have my trusty technological stead to keep me going on the right path.

Day 2 Still on a Roll

Well yesterday all in all went pretty well. At the end of the day I had used up 26.5 of my 27 points, so I cut it pretty close. I found it pretty difficult in the evening after I had had dinner. I wanted to have a bowl of cereal but realized it would have taken me a 0.5 point over. The old me would have said no go ahead its fine it doesnt matter, what is 0.5 point. But it does my friends, it does! The mind set is all wrong. And so I said no and felt very proud of myself. Instead I had an apple which I counted as 2 points. I didn't drink as much water as I should have yesterday and so I think that may have been another reason for still feeling hungry, I will have to try and drink more today.

Today is going to be a bit of a challenge. In my Animal Products Lab we are taste testing a bunch of different egg products, yeah I know right, a great week to start off weight watchers. In addition I am going to Atlanta tomorrow until Friday to a Poultry Expo where there is as much free alcohol and food as you want. However I am going to really try my best. Alcohol has so many calories in it and its just empty space in my opinion, not that I don't love a nice glass of one like the next person. However I feel my best option is to stray away from the alcohol and focus on the more healthier foods if I can.

Yesterday I bought myself and I-pod Touch on E-bay. After some bidding wars with a few other people I end up purchasing it for $142.50, which is not so bad. The bid started at $99.99, so overall it could have gotten a lot higher.

I got on the scale today and it read 195.8, so not any lighter than yesterday, and actually about .2 pounds heavier. However 1) I have only been doing the diet for a day, no miracles can be expected yet. 2) My scales are quite finicky, one minute they say one thing and the next you are 2 pounds heavier or lighter. So no worries here, I am just going to start this new Day #2 with a happy and hopefully healthier heart than yesterday.

Addition to the first day

I forgot to add one more thing to my blog earlier. On my brother's website he has a restart which includes writing down ten reasons on why you want to be my slim.

Here they are:

1. I will feel so much better about myself
2. I will stop comparing myself to every other woman I see
3. I will be much, much happier
4. I will have finally accomplished something I have been trying to do my entire life
5. I will finally be able to go shopping with my friends and not feel embarrassed
6. I will not be afraid of or try to avoid the scale anymore
7. I will be much more health conscious
8. My relationship with Austin will be even better
9. I will feel beautiful for the first time in a long time
10. I will be the size I want to be for my wedding in a couple years

Day 1, A New Beginning

Today is the first day of the rest of my life.

I have said that statement many times throughout my constant trying to lose weight. However I think I have come to the realization that I really need to make today the day. I had a chat with my brother last night, another person who has struggled with his weight for a lot of his life yet seems to have the will power and dedication of a bull. I am so proud of him for sticking with it and even when set backs occurred he pushed on and has seen the results he wanted. If any of you out there are struggling with weight, and I am sure that there are, you should really check out his website: http://sites.google.com/site/getstayslim/, it is very helpful and really gets one into the right mindset. My brother uses weight watchers as a base to his diet, incorporating some very strict, but very doable rules that will ensure success if one is willing. His website contains links for one to determine the amount of % body fat, BMI, and healthy weight range. Therefore I went ahead and calculated each of these things. As of last night I had 24.8% body fat!!!! The website further instructed me that 50 lbs of my body weight was fat, so in a sense I am carrying around 50 lbs of butter. To me that is just discussing. As a pre-vet major I have learned a lot about the food industry and am so angry at myself for allowing the bigger "man" of America get to me so easily with his old dairy cow processed hamburger meat, fake chicken, and every thing left over hot dogs, to name a few. When I spoke to my brother last night, he said start now, do not wait till tomorrow because you wont start. And so for the very first time I started at that minute right then and there. I had already gone over my points for the day I am sure, as I went to IHOP for lunch and had eaten three scones. So instead of having another high calorie meal I settled for an apple and some cereal and even though I was hungry I woke up feeling lighter and good about my self.

This morning I stepped on the scale and it read 195.6 pounds. In my case this actually made me feel good considering when I stepped on the scale yesterday it said 197.8. At least the scales did not read close to 200 as they have done within the last few months. However despite these facts 195.6 pounds is nothing really to be happy about when I aim to be 135 or 140 pounds. So I am starting anew with 195.6 pounds being the absolute most I will ever weigh again!

I began counting points this morning. However due to rushing around trying to get to class I had to grab one of my home made raisin scones. However I ate it without any butter and am estimating 4 weight watcher points. With my weight range weight watchers recommends between 24-27 points per day. So I am not doing that bad so far, however as I write these sentences I am starting to feel hungry and ate the scone only an hour ago, so I must look into better breakfast substitutes.

As for exercise, well I have never been one to really enjoy going to the gym. Now dont get me wrong, I love to go outside, go camping, horse back riding, etc... Last night I was reading my copy of Woman's World, which women by the way is a great magazine for weight loss tips and very interesting little facts. It is only $1.70 and so one of the cheapest magazines out there. In the magazine there was an article about Jennifer Aniston and how she uses Yoga to keep her body feeling healthy and looking great. There are some free videos on You Tube one can watch to do some mini Yoga Workouts. I think I will give this a go for at least a couple weeks and see if I like this better.

So today is the first day of the rest of my life. I hope to use this blog to write about my success and hopefully not my failures.